I am grieving.
After so many years reading, talking and writing about grieving, this one didn’t catch my attention at first. It came very silently and it took me a while to realize that what I was feeling had a name: grieving!
A couple of months ago, I finally decided to sell my condo. It was a tough decision and one that took me very long to make.
I thought that the condo was going to sell fast – but it didn’t. Well, fast for Canmore. It’s been two months and I got one offer that I didn’t accept. Time is passing, showings are coming and going and I found myself in a turmoil of emotions.
The last seven years of my life was spent in there. Ricardo found out the cancer while living there. He went through all his diets, chemotherapy, some recovery, cancer coming back and his death in this house. Seven out of nine of my son’s years were spent in there.
There is a lot of history in that space and it is hard to let it go. That is why being a realtor is not an easy job. It’s not just a buy and sell job, but one that involves a lot of emotions!
But why sell it then? There is nothing wrong with my condo. In fact, it is a wonderful condo that I renovated recently and it looks bright, modern and beautiful. The reason we are moving out is that I want to move to a townhome and have that ‘house’ feeling. Together with my son, we have a wish list and it includes stairs and a garage, two things the condo doesn’t offer.
It may seems silly, but I think we need some change. Move some energy around and start creating memories in a different place. Have a place that both of us will choose and decorate together.
As the time is getting closer and I am aware of my grieving, the process is getting easier and more exciting. Miss something or someone is not necessarily a bad feeling and, at the end of the day, the advantages surpass the disadvantages.